Month: February 2005

  • WOW!  WOW!  WOW! 


    I heard on the radio the other day… that when children do something outragiously wrong… don’t scold them right away or get upset… just say, “WOW!”  It gives you time to think of the “wise” thing to do, to discern whether the child needs comfort or something more stern…


    I wonder if we should take the same approach with our peers… because sometimes, the things people do leave you speechless… so, just say , “WOW!”  They won’t know what to think… ha ha


    Today was a long day… i was at the office for 11 hours… BUT i rode the bus today and that was AWESOME and very relaxing on the way home, too.  Such nice buses they have for us commuters…


    My computer and cubicle are finally set up and running as of today.  I think I’ll take a picture and post it.  I even got a 19 inch flat panel LCD monitor… my coworkers were freaking out… literally green with envy.  I felt gulty, being the new guy and getting all this nice stuff… and the coveted corner cubicle… OH WELL!  ^__^  …as it turns out, someone made a mistake and didn’t catch it, so I end up with a 19 inch flat panel LCD monitor… 


    You know, when God pours out His blessings… HE POURS OUT HIS BLESSINGS!  I don’t know how long this mountain top experience will last.  I will have to come down sooner or later…preferably later of course.  When I do come down and life gets difficult at times… I can always thank God for the time on the mountain top. 


    THANK YOU!

  • I love parking on the roof… I get to see the ocean everyday just as the sun comes over the mountain ridges… everything glimmers… I feel so ALIVE!  I wondered a little today, why God fills my life with such blessings and protects me when I drove myself into trouble…


    God said… “No reason.  I just want to ’cause I like you.  Besides, it’s not about you.  It’s about me.”


    Well, I didn’t hear a voice or anything, but that’s what I felt like He was saying to my insides…playfully.

  • Interesting morning… so on the way to work… like everyday since I started at WaMu, I’m just lost in conversation with my Favorite Friend as I drive in traffic.  As my commute brought me into the heart of downtown, I exited through the “carpool only” exit from the express lanes.  I know, “shame on me” right? 


    As I exit…ahead of me are those dreaded red and blue lights… a motorcycle cop had pulled someone over for violating the carpool lane exit.  My stomache dropped…


    The police officer looked right at me as I was only about 5 cars back from him.  He looked me straight in the eyes and I thought for sure he would point at me to pull over.  He just kept looking at me and it was odd… because now it appeared that he was looking right through me.  The light turned green and I drove past him… He never gave me another glance…


    Not that I should depend on this oddity this morning to get me out of trouble everytime, but man… it was just weird how that happened…  Praise God!  heh heh heh.

  • Wanting to read something about love and “feel good” words this morning for QT, here is what I got… :P


    “What causes fights and quarrels among you?  Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you?  You want something but don’t get it… You do not have, because you do not ask God.  When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures…”


    I admire this family that is just about perfect in my eyes.  The father is Godly, upright and a church leader who is also down to earth.  The mother fears the Lord and prays diligently but enjoys running around with her kids, coupled with laughter.  The children are God-fearing and obedient, and they play well together despite their age and gender differences.  They do many things together, like mailing out Valentine’s cards that they made together during a family project.  They do lots of things like that… as a family.


     


    I couldn’t help wonder today, when and if I would ever get a chance to have what they have.  It’s not envy…it’s not jealousy… it’s a mighty thirst that yearns a refreshing drink. 


     


    I know the world is full of romance today… flowers… chocolates… romantic evenings with a special someone… but I’m thinking of all the different kinds of love that exists in a family… the love of a husband and wife… the love of a father for his children…a mother’s love… the love children have for their parents… the trust a little girl has for her father… the adoration a father receives from his son… the beginnings of a mother-daughter bond that occurs as the young girl suddenly becomes a young woman… knowing that a mother’s love will never ever fade… all protected and bound with God’s love.


     


    Of course, all of that starts with romance sparked between a man and a woman… as they fall in love and learn to trust each other more than they had anyone else… depending on one another and upholding one another in moments of weakness…  eventually, the moment of the proposal for marriage is sprung… the wedding bells ring… the honeymoon phase… and then the highest form of love expression of man and woman leads to the creation of life, the firstborn and maybe the second…maybe more… the cute little bundles of joy grows up too fast and one day, the young children are young adults and they themselves fall in love and eventually get married… and the beautiful cycle repeats… and you grow old with the one you love, learning the joys of grandchildren and the pride that comes from seeing your own children grow to establish their own families…


     


    I used to think… is that all there is to life?  Grow up, find a job, find someone, get married, have kids and then get old… Loving someone is more profound than words could ever express… and it’s becoming clearer why parents choose to sacrifice everything for their kids…  I still remember holding my pastor’s baby, not even 2 days old… my perspectives of life changed as I looked down upon that sleeping baby in my arms…and I began to know something of paternal love and sacrifice… in that moment, I would have done anything for that newborn child… but I’m still not even close to what my parents know…and are willing to do for me. 


     


    YES!  I know all this may sound like something coming from an old man… and YES!  I did think of romantic things, too, but mostly, my thoughts were here… maybe I’m growing up some more… maybe I’m just being really weird today…  Whatever the case, God is here and He knows where I am… and if there is a “she”, He knows exactly where she is, too…


    Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!

  • Jesus… will you be my Valentine?


    heh heh heh… of course, the answer is always “Yes!”

  • So… I hung out with the boys Friday night… it’s been a while since I hung out with the fellas from T-town and as always…memorable to say the least.  There must’ve been a lot of things I had suppressed… cause I drank… a lot… and kept pace with them… not to the point of doing embarrassing things… but yeah, last night was just about blowing off some steam.  I’m not ashamed or embarrassed, so that’s a good thing and I’m thankful for the chance to reconnect with the boys…  good times.  I’m not much of a drinker… maybe once or twice a year, I’ll drink something harder than a light beer… so this is one out of the “once or twice” a year… heh heh ^__^


    One of the boys broke up with his fiance… because her insecurities led to disrespecting my friend and his family.  I guess it had been going on for years and my friend shared a lot of things he had kept secret previously.  He genuinely loved her and still cares for her…but she hurt him so much in so many ways…  He is truly one of the last “nice guys” in the world left…He was really heart broken though he was the one who broke it off.  I feel for him: it’s not easy for a guy like him to let go of a woman he loves, though it may be for the best.  Having seen my friends break up after 5 years…it’s like a divorce almost. 


    The lesson: MARRIAGE is a MIRACLE.  So many things have to work out.  The two people have to meet and fall in love at the right time in the right place…familiy matters have to work out…hearts becoming one…gaining the ability to support each other’s weaknesses and having the security of letting someone else know what your insecurities are… building trust and the fine art of giving more than expecting… finances… and the list goes on and one.. and above all, God has to bless it.  There are so many things I have yet to learn… things that I’m not even aware of yet… what hope is there but to put all hope in our Creator…


    only He knows…  only HIM…


    aaaah… starting tomorrow… working out again with some intensity and purpose.  Staying in shape helps me so much to stay focused b/c I don’t get as easily tired… and…I’m starting to get addicted to basketball again…  so, i’ts been like 3 months since I gave away my XBOX to my little brother… NO MORE VIDEO GAMES!!!!  Turns out, NOT playing video games is a good thing… who would’ve guessed?  heh heh heh… gotta be more productive…. and get in better shape…it’s the only body I’ve got… got’s to take care of it. ^___^

  • DUDE!!!!  I’M SO EXCITED!!!!  I GOT THE CORNER OFFICE (cubicle) THAT FACES THE WINDOW ONTO 2nd AVENUE!  People who’ve worked here for years have wanted this spot and the new guy (that’s me) gets to choose wherever I want my desk!  God has been so good to me lately… the timing is just impeccable… the entire process of getting this job – I came at a rare moment where they were willing to train a new person from scratch ’cause I had absolutely ZERO recruiting experience… they offered me much higher pay than I had ASKED for… even the team of people I work with, which includes a good friend from church, is completely AMAZING AND PATIENTLY HELPFUL!!!  I even get to park in the most incredible place, on the roof of a parking garage that overlooks the ocean…  I know I’ve done nothing to deserve all of this… but God is just pouring on His blessings!  What can I say?!?!  I feel SOOOOOO LOVED BY GOD!!!!  WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

  • In the moment of re-embracing a simple fact, growth took place and I grew up a little more: most other things are out of my control and the only thing I have a remote chance of controlling is myself.


    It’s not even close to ALL of myself that I can control…
    my emotions and feelings are self-dictating; I’m unable to direct its course… 
    my thoughts wander whenever it wants to…
    my body gets out of shape faster than I can get it in shape…
    my desires and wants…even those I’m unable to guide in the proper direction…
    my human body will age and get weaker, even if I were to use BOTOX!
    my world which I live in… will always go on, even without me…


    So, what can I control?  What should I try to control?


    There’s this thing that was given to us…  I tend to accept it when it’s favorable so I can take the credit and deny it when things go terribly wrong so I can blame anyone else but myself…  but the truth is… there is nothing to my credit and all blame is on me.  Thank God for salvation and the forgiveness of sins.


    This thing is… this wonderful thing God gave us…
    It’s called free will.


    The only chance I have of controlling myself…is doing my best to make the right choices…
    choosing to seek God’s face and not just answers to my questions…
    choosing the places and situations I allow myself to be in…
    choosing to think positively or negatively…
    choosing the attitude with which I approach a brand new day…
    choosing to work hard rather than choosing indifference or apathy…
    choosing to lend a hand rather than looking on with spite…
    choosing to be thankful rather than craving more for me me me
    choosing…


    choosing… that’s about all the control I have over my life and even then, it only works out for the best when I choose what God reveals to be best for me and more importantly, OTHERS… of course, that’s the hard part, trying to decipher God’s message amidst all of my thoughts and selfish desires, right?  But God has always been and always will be… GRACIOUS.  His GRACE is the sufficient enough answer for all my questions… so I can only hope that I am choosing wisely and according to what pleases Him.

  • As I walked from work to the parking garage…I felt a deep sense of satisfaction… not sure what it’s from though. 


    Of course, it has to be offset by the silly things I do at times… like today, I left the light on all day… and of course.. the battery was completely drained…  luckily, some nice workers helped me out… and now I’m home.  heh heh… first time I did that.. quite humbling… ^__^

  • i don’t even notice the morning traffic anymore… it hasn’t changed.  In fact, it’s gotten worse… but something is different… maybe I’ve changed.  All I see in the morning is the sunrise to my left and a positive outlook on the new day… sure, i see all the tail lights in front of me that run ahead for miles… but so what. 


    when i drive, i park in this garage that charges only $6 to park if I get in before 9:30.  What’s so nice about it, besides the price?  It’s right next to the waterfront… so in the morning, i get to see the sparkling ocean as the sun comes over from the east.. and when i leave for home, i get to see the sun settle in the west… just breaking the line where the sky and water meet…


    Am I lucky or what?  Ha ha ha ha… God is too good to me.