August 16, 2004
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The inner struggles we experience, the battle to keep our thoughts pure and our motives upright… all a spiritual battle that takes place in the arena of our minds. I realized the “stirring” inside was just that… a conflict of flesh and spirit, both gritting their teeth in heated combat. Paul teaches us to put off our old self and put on our new one…we learned this at PR’s on Tuesdays… and it is this battle to relinquish the last of the old for the new that keeps me up at night. Constantly keeping thoughts in check…sure is a weary task… and I’m just too tired right now to complete my thoughts
Sleep is good…..so good.
I tried sleeping…not working too well, so might as well add on to my journal. I don’t even know who’ll ever read these words, except the only person,MORNINGLORIA, who left comments. It’s a strange calm that comes over me as I write words…almost as if I’m being healed in the process…a chance to recover from the stones life throws at you.
I asked PR to pray for me today…I need relief from the remnants of my old self that clings on. I’m on the verge completely emerging from my shell, but I’m tired and weary…spiritually and physically…but the idea of leaving all that behind compels me to struggle on… It may seem cruel, but the struggles are what makes us stronger. As we overcome difficulties, we find that the same obstacle no longer causes us to stumble…because I am stronger… Am I even making sense? I’m sooooooooooooooooo tired, but my mind is racing again. If only I could run this fast in real life… ^____^
Comments (6)
can’t believe you jacked my smile
i feel like it’s time for all of us to peel out of our shells
…i think it can only do good. jae oppa, be bold! be brave! be hopeful! you can do it! thanks for your bible verse. here’s one for you too…
“Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.
Philippians 4:8
Hang in there!
whoa.. since when did you start having a xanga page? weird.. you know what song that came across my mind as i was reading your entry?? “the warrior is a child” i forgot who sang it, but i have it on a cd, i’ll go check later. smile
and sleep! i looooooooooove sleeping, it feels good:)
pshh! ice cream….
lol its aight im just jokin
amy! don’t underestimate the power of ice cream…:P