August 15, 2004

• As we get older, it seems that time is somehow shortened.  We still have the same 24 hours, yet we have fewer and fewer lazy afternoons staring into the sky in wonderment at all of God’s creations.  Days of innocence gone by…I miss those days… 

  
  

  Something dawned on me today, reminded of a lesson learned in the past: certain actions and behaviors prevent our true selves from revealing itself because these are mechanism with which we protect our hearts.  We want to be one way, but we choose to be another in order to hide the true nature of our hearts, that is, a heart that has gone through refining…but as the heart becomes purer, it becomes more transparent…and we know this, so we attempt to hide our hearts and take cover behind our masks…behind our machismo…or femininity.

  
  

  My vagueness is only a challenge to others to figure me out…but is it worth the time and effort to do so?

  
  

  I end today on a strange note…surreal… don’t understand exactly what is going on in me, but something is happening…something has stirred awake…  Lord, please let it be a good thing.

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