December 23, 2005
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…just a thought…
about timing… the right things come when the time is right.
speaking of… I think many “single” people “think” that the time is “now!”, when in fact, we’re really “asking” subconsciously, “Why not now?”
in remembrance… as with many things, certain events take place when your “ducks are in a row”. Seemingly, when things should work out, when it’s not your time, it’s just not your time [Get over it
]. I’ve had one “girlfriend” my whole life [and she was supposed to be the one... I had waited 25 years to meet her]. I don’t date and don’t plan on “dating”, but then, how would I meet the right person? Well, that’s what “true” friends are for, right? j/k It’s in His hands, but when He says “Go for it!”, you’d better.
I would often think back as to why I broke up with her… because I analyze things…
- A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions–as attempts to find out something. Success and failure are for him answers above all.
Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 – 1900),
- and because I missed her a while afterwards. Obviously, it wasn’t my time. I wasn’t ready. So, a decision was made [because we arrived at the point of moving to the next level or calling it quits - it wouldn't have been right to make her wait for me to finish my morph].
I don’t regret it.
I’m in a good place.
The “GOOD NEWS” is that she’s getting married next year, “Finally” she says. Good for her… and good for me, too
No doubt that most of us will continue to change throughout our lives [hopefully, growing to be more Christ-like], and there are multiple ”destinations” reached, at which certain characteristics solidify upon reaching it. ”Defining moments” we call them, influencing our preferences and decision making processes; our psyche. We’ll continue to grow on this foundation, only to be changed by the miraculous healing touch of our Lord and Savior as He sees fit. I’m stronger now… and weaker, too… and the weaker I get, the stronger “He” becomes in me… so I’m stronger.
I’ll be turning 30 in a couple of weeks… and for some reason, I always felt that “things” would start happening as I approached that age. Even as a freshman @ the University of Washington in 1994 [EEK!], realizing that my love for sciences|medicine was a terrible deception, I knew that my “soul searching” would conclude sometime in the future, approaching the tender age of 30.
I’m not a prophet per se… but I just knew… [foreshadow]
A flurry of events transpired this past year and it was more than I could ever expect from His bounty. ..but a question still remains… “Why not now?”
He’s putting that question to rest, too, as with many things… I’ve learned to wait patiently for His unveiling [whereas I'd take off on my own before and just make a mess of things - then the clean up effort was a phenomenon in itself, but I guess it gave God more opportunity to demonstrate His power
Please, let me live in my skewed rationale 
].
Ha ha ha… I can’t help but laugh at myself… my folly… my silliness…
…I get so serious and critical sometimes.
“Dude, just calm down!” is what I’d like to yell in the mirror…
…so I do sometimes
It’s therapeutic.
Hmmmmm…… I don’t really have a point. As the initial words conveyed….
…just a thought.
God is good!
- A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions–as attempts to find out something. Success and failure are for him answers above all.
Comments (4)
hahahha being single is sooo wonderful… enjoy it while it lasts! ^^
i’m actually at a point in my life…finally, where i’m content and actually enjoying being single. only by the grace of God.
I think I know how your feeling, althought the specifics are a bit different. Relationships are difficult. I can’t wait until I could finally look back and smile.
happy holiday!