Month: May 2005

  • I think it’s time for another round of Paintball.


    Anyone want to join me?


    I’m itching to pop someone!  PU HA HA HA


     


    On a side note, all my shots were short Sunday… I realized yesterday that I threw my arm out a little tossing a football around without stretching my shoulder out… cause it’s STILL freakin’ SORE!  Why oh Why must age catch up to me!?!? 

  • Everyone has flaws…  and recalling a memory from somewhere during my over-educated but unretained academic career, every great man had some sort of great flaw to overcome [substitute flaw with antagonist, obstacle, adversity, etc.].  Often misplaced is a simple notion: every man puts on his pants one leg at a time.


    It’s also been my observance in many a great men, that next to him stood a greater woman… that is to say: 


    “A woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” 


    I’m not quite sure if it is the woman who makes a man great or if it’s a great man who brings out the greater woman… or both… it’s a bit of a mystery to me. 


    …perhaps… that’s just a part of what marriage is supposed to be: ”competing” in a sense to nurture the other faster and more often so that each would resonate God’s presence and touch, down to the finest veins of life. 


    Brothers and Sisters in Christ who are married, help a brotha’ out with this one


    I’m tired… I’m Audi.

  • This is Mr. James W. Dungee… one of the most important figures in my life.  I’ll have to wait to see him again… but he’s where his heart longed to be.  God is good.








  • Your #1 Match: ENTJ

    The Executive You are a natural leader – with confidence and strength that inspires others. Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise. Sometimes you aren’t the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow. You are not easily intimidated – and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.


     

    personally, this guy scares me

  • Before the night is young… we grow old
    If you’re living in the past… you’re no longer living
    Forget it before you write it down
    Life is short… so go long

  • The Good or the Best?


     


    “If you take the left, then I will go to the right, or, if you go to the right, then I will go to the left.”  Genesis 13:9


     


    As soon as you begin to live the life of faith in God, fascinating and physically gratifying possibilities will open up before you.  These things are yours by right, but if you are living the life of faith you will exercise your right to waive your rights, and let God make your choice for you.  God sometimes allows you to get into a place of testing where your own welfare would be the appropriate thing to consider, if you were not living the life of faith.  But if you are, you will joyfully waive your right and allow God to make your choice for you.  This is the discipline God uses to transform the natural into the spiritual through obedience to His voice.


                Whenever our right becomes the guiding factor of our lives, it dulls our spiritual insight.  The greatest enemy of the life of faith in God is not sin, but good choices which are not quite good enough.  The good is always the enemy of the best.  In this passage, it would seem that the wisest thing in the world for Abram to do would be to choose.  It was his right, and the people around him would consider him to be a fool for not choosing.


                Many of us do not continue to grow spiritually because we prefer to choose on the basis of our rights, instead of relying on God to make the choice for us.  We have to learn to walk according to the standard which has its eyes focused on God.  And God says to us, as He did to Abram, “…walk before Me…” (Genesis 17:1)


     


    [My Utmost for His Highest]

  • I had to erase it… too ashamed to post lackluster writing

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    I’ve recently started to write again… it’s been years.  It’s a work in progresss… Please be kind ’cause I’m just fragile like that. 

  • I’m taking the day off from work…

  • Another crazy week and the weekend is already past… 


    I was a bit anxious about a particular area of my life, but I found out this weekend that I’m done with my commitment to the military… no more Army Reserve after the month of June.  I’ll be honorably discharged – that’s one less thing on my plate now… but I’m going to miss the comradery that only a few have experienced and understand… and wearing the uniform and the black beret… 


    i can’t help but feel like i’m leaving my buddies behind… because they’re leaving for Iraq in September.


    My pastor is prior military also and he’s probably one of the few who really understands the turmoil… I’ve been so torn between staying in and going with my buddies to Iraq or getting out of the Army… but my pastor says… there’s plenty of other battles to fight and plenty of other “buddies” I’ll be “fighting” with… the “good fight”… being a  soldier for Christ.  His words really do comfort me… gives me much assurance that I’m doing the right thing, esp. being that he really knows where i’m coming from.  He said, if he wasn’t married, he’d go out there, too, cause his buddies are out there… in Iraq. 


    I’m so thankful for PR’s words… the guilt subsides slowly, but surely.  I know I’m doing the right thing… to not let this be in vain.


    Grace: receiving that which i don’t deserve
    Mercy: not receiving that which i do deserve