May 23, 2005

• Another crazy week and the weekend is already past… 

  
  

  I was a bit anxious about a particular area of my life, but I found out this weekend that I’m done with my commitment to the military… no more Army Reserve after the month of June.  I’ll be honorably discharged – that’s one less thing on my plate now… but I’m going to miss the comradery that only a few have experienced and understand… and wearing the uniform and the black beret… 

  
  

  i can’t help but feel like i’m leaving my buddies behind… because they’re leaving for Iraq in September.

  
  

  My pastor is prior military also and he’s probably one of the few who really understands the turmoil… I’ve been so torn between staying in and going with my buddies to Iraq or getting out of the Army… but my pastor says… there’s plenty of other battles to fight and plenty of other “buddies” I’ll be “fighting” with… the “good fight”… being a  soldier for Christ.  His words really do comfort me… gives me much assurance that I’m doing the right thing, esp. being that he really knows where i’m coming from.  He said, if he wasn’t married, he’d go out there, too, cause his buddies are out there… in Iraq. 

  
  

  I’m so thankful for PR’s words… the guilt subsides slowly, but surely.  I know I’m doing the right thing… to not let this be in vain.

  
  

  Grace: receiving that which i don’t deserve
  Mercy: not receiving that which i do deserve

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