February 3, 2005
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In light of all the things that have happened the last few weeks, I only feel smaller… “Yeah, but you’re like 6’2″ and 205 pounds!!”
I can make choices because that is a freedom the Lord granted all of us, but without His guidance, my choices lead to misery… but accepting His lead, no matter how confusing or undesirable at the moment, always leads to His glory first and the edification of His people.
I struggle daily… to desire what He desires for me… to put aside what is in me and embrace what He has for me… I am sad and joyful at the same time, because my flesh and spirit are at a frenzy, fighting for dominance… I pray that the Spirit will bring His victory quickly… but His will be done. Please lift a prayer for me… that this round of pruning and refining will leave more of Him and much less of me…
“No eyes has seen,
No ear has heard,
No mind has ever conceived
What God has prepared for those who love
HIM.”
