October 3, 2004

• It occurred to me just now, how thoughtless I am at times…but in others, overwhelmed, overanalyzing and over-thinking everything.  I know some people will think, “it took you this long to realize this?”, but hey, I had an “ah-ha” moment. 

  
  

  The Public Jae is so different from the private one… is it really necessary for us to have varying fronts…I wonder.  It’s not that I have two faces, but I cover parts of it in public and not so much in private…  I would like to find a happy medium in which my whole face is revealed without worrying about guarding my heart so much…because when it comes down to it, it’s about not wanting to get hurt…or embarrassed…etc, but living with even minor fears hinders our ability to be fully effective believers… to obey is better than sacrifice… and to obey is showing God we LOVE HIM…no matter how difficult the subject matter that requires our obedience.

  
  

  These days, there is an extra lift in my step…don’t know why exactly.  Nothing’s really changed in my surroundings, so I have to conclude that it’s a God thing… don’t need to know why… just a gift from our Father who loves to spoil His children in this way… with joy. 

  
  

  I had my personal best time in the 2-mile run today… FEELS GRRRRREAT!

  • 2:38 pm
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